I..

I'm not sure why I'm feeling like this, hell I'm in Germany, but every time I see..it just gets me ill. Why in the hell am I ignored. Am I that bad, because obviously on everyone's list, I'm on the bottom. I'm shit to their shoe. I really just want to cry, does anyone ever think about how I feel? Words I speak..mean nothing at all, can you even see me? No. No one can, because my feelings are never taken into account. Talk to me, say something, start a conversation. Please. Anymore of this and I don't even know if I'll survive a few days of it, this is ripping open old wounds.